Wednesday, March 31, 2010

Hi all, Helmi here.

Eh wait, I don't have to say that cause this IS my blog! Okok.

Point is, I woke up crying. Tears literally rolled down my cheeks.
Why, you ask? Look at the damned title, bloody @%$^#$!

Yeah, it was a dream about Leena/Lina/Roslinah/Axl Roselinah, my beloved girlfriend.
A nightmare.

So here goes:-
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There I was in school. School looked weird. It looked like old Fengshan Primary,
with the center garden as a soccer field (which looked like the field at sengkang). I was in the middle of the field and the toilet. Had a glimpse of the toilet. It was the BIG-ASSED toilet. (This BIG-ASSED toilet is another story itself)

We were playing soccer class vs class. "Playing". The "classmates" were weird yet the typical situation where the girls just stand there and the boys (me and another weird boy) did the work.

So suddenly things got skipped and a girl approached me identifying herself as my "new classmate". Then I found out I was the new student, not her!

Somehow we started dating, but it was weird, cause the girl triggered something in my mind.
Something familiar yet I didn't know what was it. The was she looked, she dressed. She liked me alot in the dream. I was feeling weird.

Somehow again we were...errr...doing something...(Sayang, I'll tell you personally later)..then she did something oh-so-familiar. It's like I've been there, done that thing. DEJAVU.

That's it. I knew that I knew a girl like her before. And I had pictures of her in my mobile. I knew I had proof that I knew that other girl. I went "home" and rummaged through my stuffs, my laptop, my mobile, my albums, everything. But seems that every proof there is to that other girl was gone. Replaced are other pictures that were weird with people I didn't know!

Somehow the number "131" cropped out of my head.

"Take me to block 131 now!" I screamed. The I-was-dating-girl took me there. Took a train which stopped at level 3 of block 131. I went up and down the staircase like a million times saying "naa..naaa..na. na!"

Then there was her, all clad in her white sleeveless, the mickey mouse shorts and that blue shoes. All so familiar. The long straight hair.

I said nothing, and I went to her and screamed "It's me!" like so many times. She gave me that weird look and asked "Who're you?" I shook her shoulder, hoping something would change. Fact was, I didn't even know her name! She was just someone I know I was close to. A hand pulled me back and there he was hugging that girl. "Sape kao nak kacao matair orang ni". That girl hugged a guy with mullet hair. He was wearing a "Summer" t-shirt, blue checkered shirt, a black pair of jeans and black skate shoes. His hands were big.

I was devastated. The I-was-dating girl brought to sit on the staircase. She took out two news articles.

"Bus bangs onto a tree. Boy and girl with severe head injuries. Memory loss expected"

"Boy in accident loses memory and changed face had no one, everyone couldn't recognize him."

Those were the titles.

"Forget Leena, sayang.. I'll take care of you from now on..." I heard the voice.

My mind was somewhere else. I cried in the dream....

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And it continued to reality. Yes I cried.

The girl I "dated" looked exactly like Leena, my girlfriend. The face, the body, the look, the voice. Only difference was the hair. It was wavy.

The girl with the guy. It was Leena. Everything was her. Including the clothes.

The guy. It was me. With mullet hair. Not me, but looked exactly like me minus the hair.

No wonder I cried. I'm sure my girlfriend knows my biggest fear. She knows it well.

I also hope she knows how much I love and miss her..


They were found again at 2:31 PM